'Having a wild night, sticking with the notepad another night, staying up by the phone until it's midnight, and then counting for how many more nights I'd need to wait. Oh, this is bad; finally I decided to busy myself with a chapter about rhetoric tonight'
Kiwi's away and I'm 'single'. Without receiving any calls, I am getting increasingly anxious. I am always optimistic but when it relates to Kiwi, thoughts pop up from the worst end. Instead of thinking like he's having fun, I think like he lost the phone, he got sick, he has accident...
When I am with him, even tramping overnight or straying in a foreign country could be fine, BUT... If I have ever complained about having no private time, it should have been a perfect timing to enjoy doing my own things. BUT...
I know working hard is the best way to distract myself from the negative thinking so I spent the whole afternoon yesterday to finish another chapter. And YES, that made me feel better. Then I started to read through the LAP again preparing some writing pieces for the test. And YES, that made me feel much better. Then I started to study through the profiles of my kids, checking how many of them are SENS trying to identify what their problems are. And YES, that made me feel much more better.
At last, I fell asleep over my papers and had a dreamless night.