Alright, I have been working on Rumba these two months as the competition is coming really soon. I kept my daily 2-hour practice, I have been really grateful that on most Mondays and Fridays my partner's partner has come a long way to guide me and help perfect my footwork, and my partner has squeezed time to practice with me over weekends. And of course I thank so much for my Kiwi who has demonstrated huge tolerance when he needed to come along and watch us dance... Everyone has been helping and I surely worked hard and tried to improve as much as I could…
I want to be perfect but after all the hard work, I don't think I have much achievement: the forward walk turn is still crap, the point and swivel are still not sharp. I somehow know why I made all these crap but I kept trying the steps in a slow motion tons of times and until I thought I was okay and put it in a normal speed, crap! Really it's tons and tons and tons of times and I am still not okay. I may be better than quite a number of people, but the point is I need to be better than the yesterday’s me, otherwise why I should practice so hard. (and here I can see the pointing look so much like a chicken leg. and when I told myself to straighten the legs knees still not staying back... Shoes make a different, Ray Rose is better. But Ray Rose can't help technique, it can only give a polish when you have good technique.)
Although everyone says I should not stress myself too much, you know, when you entre a competition, you just want to win. In case you are not going to win, at least you would not love to be ranking the last. This morning I tidied my practicing videos a bit and tried to find something to cheer myself up. Well, I can’t say I can’t pick a moment or two when I was doing quite nice, I should be happy... but that’s just a second in the WHOLE dance, should I be happy now?